My thoughts 7/5/13

It has been quite a while since I have posted anything on any of my Mama Snow Writes' outlets. Life has been busy for me, and I have been over stressing everything. Sometimes I let my anxieties and my fears of the unknown near future get the best of me. This tends to stop me from accomplishing the things I want in life. The best way to describe it is like a poison slowly killing the rational side of you and makes everything seem impossible even though deep down you know the truth. 

Last night I went on amazon just to "window shop" you could say then I noticed at the bottom where it says "things to consider" it showed my book and I noticed it showed that it had two reviews. I thought to myself a second review...I must read it. 

5 stars: " I loved the entire book; there was so much emotion in each passage that kept my heart beating with it. The poet really conveyed clearly with every word and I can't wait to see what she comes out with next!! I HIGHLY recommend this to anyone for a good read" 

My first reaction, I was left speechless. With over 80 Amazon Kindle downloads and just a handful of actual paperback copies sold but no real feedback I was left to wonder if anyone truly enjoyed the writing I have put my all into. Publishing my poetry has been a dream of mine for years now; so when I saw the chance to be able to publish my work as an Indie Author I just jumped right to it with no experience at all. But sometimes I thought was it worth it? Does my writing mean anything? Do my readers feel the way I felt when I wrote these words down? Was I able to touch someone's heart?

When it finally sunk in what I read I realized even if the whole world doesn't know that I am a writer. Even if there are people who read my book but it "wasn't worth their time" For those who were able to read my poetry and was able to feel my poetry, my journey in becoming an author was all worth it. As silly as it may sound reading this little passage has given me hope again to continue the path I am on. The Gods may not always speak to you and give you the answers you want but when you need it the most they do show you a ray of sunshine when the time is right on the glummest day.